i'm not really myself..but i'm looking who am i actually..

dearest my love blog..

sowi for late updates my blog..
i'm bz..a lot of bzness..
dlm cbok2 nih,,ak tnsion gk..
yela mcm2 jd kt dri ak..
tp ak sbar je ok..
ak tau smer ni dtg dr allah..
DIA yg bri ujian ni kt ak..
ak trime ngn redha..

ag 1,,start next week pn dh bz..
i got 2 test for that's week..
tarikh nye dkat lak 2..so kne study awl..\

dear my mom..

i miss u so much..
mak majok ag ngn akk kerw??
jgnla cmni mak..idup akk tiap2 ari x tntram..
akk d'blnggu srba slah n rse b'dosa kt mak plak..
plz mak..i need u in my life..
idup akk x b'mkna tnpa mak..
akk dh x d sape ag slain mak dlm idup akk nih..
mak la sgala pngubat n pnwar akk ble akk d'lnda mslah..
skung akk ad mslh bsar dlm idup akk
d'mna akk sndri pn x ley maafkn dri akk sndri..
plzz..only u in my heart..

to my cayunk (mok tem)..

sowi ye syg..
ma dh bnyk wt slh n silp kt pa..
now,ma sdar yg ape yg pa ckpkn 2 sumer btol..
ma x snggup nk khlngn owg yg pntng dlm idup ma ni..
ma tau,2 sumer ego yg ad dlm dri ma ni..sbb 2 ma jd cm2..
maafkn ma k..ma cyg pa sgt2..
n sowi again coz lately ni ma bz ckit..
so ma mnx maaf kalo x call o msj syg..
syg phmkn..bnyk sgt komtmen ma kne lksanakn..
(wah cm YB lak..hehe)
t ble ma dh rse free,,kte g honeymoon ag k..
kli ni msti gmpak nye..haha (mengong jp..)

kpd GBS yg d'mlaka..

sakie,bb,zue,arifa n fara..
i miss u all..
kowg tetp kt ati ak..
bnyk bnda yg ak x ley lupe psal kowg smer..
sumer indah blaka.."kngn mngusik jiwa"..(gila jiwang)
sowi for u all guys..coz x msj n contct u all
ak bukn sngaja nk wt cm2 k..
n ak pn tau kowg phm n ak pn phm ngn kowg k..(ape ak ckp ni,,x phm ak..GILA!!)
mksd ak,,yela,,kte x msj2 n calling2 ag..
ak pn skung x b'ksmptn ag nk g umh kowg..
sowi k..
n sblm 2 ak nk mnx maaf kt kowg if ak ad bwt slah n slap kt kowg..
ak tau kowg ad smpn prasaan x puas ati kt ak an..
tp kowg tkot nk ckp ngn ak..
don worry ak ni open mnded..
ak ske org yg trus trang..
kalo kowg x suke,ckp je x suke..
ak x ske kalo ckp blakang..kang idup x aman lak..
plz k..ckp je ape yg kowg nk ckp psal ak..
ak sdar slame ni pn ak x pnh nk jd kwn yg t'baek tok kowg..

actually ak jeles ngn kowg b'5..
korg dr dlu smpi skung still together..
ak je yg x together..
mmg dr dlu ag ak x pnh nk together ngn sape2..
now ak dh x d kwn ag..i'm lonely k..
my mom la kwn ak dunia akhirat..
ble ak tgk pic2 kowg,,ak x tau nk ckp ape..
i'm speechless..
kowg hepi always..n always..
e2 la yg ak nmpk kt korg..but i'm hepi too ble kowg hepi..
ak doakn korg sntse yg t'baek k..
hopefully ur life is successful..
may ALLAH bless u all..

one more thng b'4 i'll fnished my word..
ak nk ckp yg ak skung dlm dlema antra idup dn mati ak..
sbb 2 ak nk cri sape dri ak sbnarnye..
n ak nk ubah ape yg ak dh mulekn wktu ak muda2 dlu..
i'ts time to i'll changed my life..
iera yg dlu dh bnyk bwt mslh yg ak o owg len x ley maafkn..
sowi kpd smua yg mngenali dri ini..
dr ati yg ikhlas dn rse rndah dri..
ak mnx maaf atas smua prkara yg ak dh bwt..
kowg sndri ley tau kn..
kpd yg sudi maafkn ak..ak b'trima ksih
smoga ALLAH blas jse kowg k..
n please,,i'm begging from u all..
kalo ak nk ubah idup ak ni,,
plz jgn la kowg ktuk o perli ak..
ak x ley trime e2 smer..i need my time 2 changed slowly k..
n tme ksih kpd yg sudi skong sy dgn s'ikhlas ati..
moga tuhan sajala yg dpt blas jsa kowg..

okla..dh pnjng lebar ak ckp..
skung ak ad keje nk wt..
next time,i'll text again k..
daa..i luv u all
one malaysia..

i LOVE u mAk

dearest my lovely mom..
i miss u so much..
n i love u damn much..

sbnarye bukn niat akk nk bwt cm2..
mak pn tau kn sikap n prangai akk ni cmne..
tp knpe skung yg t'blik..??
akk rse srba salah sgt3..
akk dh bwt dosa ag ngn mak..
please maafkn akak k..
akak x nk idup akak t x smpurna tnpa rstu mak..
akak mintak maaf sgt2 kalo ad slah n silp akk slame ni..
akak tgh cube utk brubah jd yg t'bek..
tp mak kne bg akk pluang k..tnjuk akak jln yg btol tau..
akak syg mak sgt2..

mak sorg je tmpat akak mngadu nsib n b'mnje..
mak segalanya bg akk..
maafkn akak ye mak..
jgn buang akk ag..plzz..i'm begging u...

now i'm already 20 k..matured already..don play2

haloooo...

20 feb 2010 (saturday)
my bufday yg ke-20..
yes!!that's mean i ni dh dwasa..
bukn budak2 ag..
but hdiah yg ak dpt still cm budak2 ag..
em x pela..ak trime..
thnks a lot yer kpd s'spe yg wish bufday at ak
n bg hdiah kt ak..
ak cyg kowg sumer..luv u all
yg x igt bufday ak,,it's ok..
ak x kcik ati pn..
at least jgn lupe k..

especially my cayunk..
i love u so much..mmuuaahhhh..
sygku dh bwt idup ni lbih b'mkna..
ma akn igt smpi ble2..
smpi mati ma nk kte sntse b'sme k..
ckupla pngalamn yg lpas dh bnyk beri pngajarn dlm idup ma..
x nk bnda cm2 b'laku ag..

n tme ksih tok sumer ae papa..
honeymoon kte b'dua mmg best glerw..
knangn yg pling mnis n indah tok kte b'dua
wlaupn smer bnda x d'duga kn..
ble knang alek, klakar pn ad gk..hehehe(rhsia)
n ag 1,,bear 2 ma bg nme nuralim k..
smpena nme kte b'dua..~weeee
jgn mare.."mok tem"..wakaka

knape msti aku...??!!...

dear blog..
ari ahd yg ckup indh tuk ak luahkn ape yg t'buku kt ati ak slame smggu..
mcm2 yg b'laku dlm idup ak..

ak kne mrah,,ak kne pulau,,ak kne maki..
sumer ak la yg kena..
ak tau ak ni bukn seorg yg perfect kt dunia nih..
so ak tau klemahan ak ktne..
tp please la jgn la amk ksempatan kt ak cmni..
ak punya ati n prasaan..
ak punyai ati yg lmbut dn ckup snsitif..
even korg ckp cmne pn ak akn cpt trase..
tp ak pn seorng yg open minded..
korg nk ckp ape ak ley trima tp please bukn ati n prasaan..

ak nk tnye nih..
ak lyak ke dpt kwn yg t'bek utk ak??
x kira sush o snang..??
adakah ak lyak m'punyai kwn sprti org2 len??
kalo ak punyai kwn knpe die khianati ak??
knpe prlu amk ksmpatan ats klemahan ak??
knpe prlu m'milih pras n kdudukn??
knpe prlu b'pura-pura dlm p'sahabatan??
teruk sgt ae ak nih..??
YES..!!ak mmg trok!!
ak x perfect cm korg..
dlu ak snang,,korg nk kwn ngn ak..
skung ak papa..korg lari..

makk..!!
knpe dowg msti bwt akak cmni??
besar sgt ke dosa ak kt kowg..
x pela..skung ak lbih rela idup sndrian b'bnding ad kwan..
mak..
mak,x yah rsau akak lagi ae kalo akak x d kwan..
akak rase kalo akak sorg pn x pe..
x d sape nk skitkn ati akak lagi..
snang idup akak..x d la t akak slalu makan ati..

satu perkara lagi ak nk buat pembaharuan dlm idup ak..
ak nk brubah..
msti korg glak kn pe yg ak nk ckp nih..
ak x nk jd iera yg dulu..
iera yg dulu slalu pntngkn diri,idup senang lenang,x d mase dpan,x d komitmen,b'harap kt org len,b'poya-poya,enjoy smpi x sdar diri,budk yg x sdar d'untung,x nk dgar kata org tua n mcm2 agla..

tp e2 sumer dulu..
waktu ak x knal ag siapa diri ak sebenar..
skung ak dh tau asl usul ak,,
ak dh tau siapa diri ak sbenarnya,,
so,,ak nk try b'ubah..
ak x nk jd cm dulu,,
please ak nk b'ubah sgt2..
ak lyak kn utk brubah mnjadi seorg budak yg bek..
ad siapa2 yg ley tolng ak x??
ak sgt2 perlukan nya..
PLEASEE...
seriously,,I NEED SOME ADVISE!!

sakie,kalo ko bace blog ak ni..
ak hrap ko ley tolng ak kn..
ko la pnasihat t'bek bg ak..
ak prlukn nasihat ko,kwan..

tiap kli ak pkr kn tntng dri ak cmni,,
ak msti nangis..
tp x d sape tau..
ak x nk cter kt sape2..
ak x nk sushkn org dgn msalah ak..
tp ak x larat dh skung..
ak rase idup ak x lme..
sbb 2 ak nk ubah idup ak sblm tbe wktunya..
ak hrap smpt tuk ak brubah n b'taubat..

kpada sesape yg mngenali ak..
ak mnx maaf sgt2 kt korg kalo ak ad bwt slah n silap..
ak tau spanjang pngenalan kte bnyk prkara yg ak dh sushkn korg..
tp lpas nih,,korg jgn rsau,,ak x kn sushkn ag korg k..
ak akn try buat sndiri n biarla ak sush dr bwah..
mak n ayah slalu ckp "b'susah-susah dulu b'senang-senang kmudian"
so ak akn try blaja idup sush skung..
don wory guys,,ak msih mmpu b'diri dikaki sndiri..
thnks a lot kpada sesape yg dh bnyk sudi bntu ak ngn seikhlas yg mungkin..
smoga tuhan balas jasa budi baik korg smada d'dunia o akhirat..
luv u all..

okla smpi cni je..
i need some rest..
next time i will text again k..
wish my luck..

aiii..blog..long time no c..hehe

lme nye x update blog ku..
lme kew??..huhu..
actually bnyk work yg ak kne bwt for 2 o 3 days ni..
mklumla student la katakn..

arini x d pe yg mnarik tok ak cter b'sme..
yela ane x nye asyik2 lalui bnda yg sme..
bosan gler lorh..
t ak nk edit assgmnt ak blek..
lect bg ksmptan tok kte tmbh ag marks..
so..go..go..fightng..gila

tp kn arini ak plek la npe la ak mkn bnyk arini..
bpak ar bnyk glerw kot..bpak pn x gler cmni..hahaha
hei,,iera..iera..
ko kata nk diet kn..
nk kurgkn berat bdan 2..
tp tgk,,pe ko dh buat..
oh my god..i think bert i dh nek 5kg kowt..
what??!!!..oh shit man..
ape yg harus ak lakukn nihhh...oh TIDAKKKK!!!!
ad ke cra2 nk trunkn bert bdan ak ni slame 2 min cm bwt megi??
ko glerw..x d la wei...
x pe..sok kte pose..hahaha..ley ke tahan..??
mak aii,,pasni x ley la ak pkai bju lwa ag..
xpe2..kte slow diet k..
chaiyok3..~ngeeeee

bangang..sakit ati ak..cm sial!!!

dearest blog..

ak x nk ckp pape arini coz ak mmg x d mood n ak mmg ngah angin 1 bdan..
that's why ak x nk ckp ngn sape2..
biarla dowg nk ckp ak ape..g la..
n plz la,,ak bnci gler ngn org hipokrit ni..
asl nk dngki ngn org hah??

weiii,,cm sial x ke bnagng ke org cm2...
arggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
ak nk ckp mmg sial la wei!!!
bnda ni x d kaitn ngn sape2 kcuali org yg mmg cri pasl ngn ak..
g mamposs la..sial!

dhla,,ak tnsion..ptg ni ad kuiz mkro..hncur lg..
pg ni ak miss 2 klAs coz gara2 x tdo smlm n x lart nk g klas..
my dearest lovely lecturer...
i'm sory bcoz i'm missed ur clas 4 today..
i'm really2 sori..
t nk jmpe kt blik die la...
k out!!