i'm not really myself..but i'm looking who am i actually..

dearest my love blog..

sowi for late updates my blog..
i'm bz..a lot of bzness..
dlm cbok2 nih,,ak tnsion gk..
yela mcm2 jd kt dri ak..
tp ak sbar je ok..
ak tau smer ni dtg dr allah..
DIA yg bri ujian ni kt ak..
ak trime ngn redha..

ag 1,,start next week pn dh bz..
i got 2 test for that's week..
tarikh nye dkat lak 2..so kne study awl..\

dear my mom..

i miss u so much..
mak majok ag ngn akk kerw??
jgnla cmni mak..idup akk tiap2 ari x tntram..
akk d'blnggu srba slah n rse b'dosa kt mak plak..
plz mak..i need u in my life..
idup akk x b'mkna tnpa mak..
akk dh x d sape ag slain mak dlm idup akk nih..
mak la sgala pngubat n pnwar akk ble akk d'lnda mslah..
skung akk ad mslh bsar dlm idup akk
d'mna akk sndri pn x ley maafkn dri akk sndri..
plzz..only u in my heart..

to my cayunk (mok tem)..

sowi ye syg..
ma dh bnyk wt slh n silp kt pa..
now,ma sdar yg ape yg pa ckpkn 2 sumer btol..
ma x snggup nk khlngn owg yg pntng dlm idup ma ni..
ma tau,2 sumer ego yg ad dlm dri ma ni..sbb 2 ma jd cm2..
maafkn ma k..ma cyg pa sgt2..
n sowi again coz lately ni ma bz ckit..
so ma mnx maaf kalo x call o msj syg..
syg phmkn..bnyk sgt komtmen ma kne lksanakn..
(wah cm YB lak..hehe)
t ble ma dh rse free,,kte g honeymoon ag k..
kli ni msti gmpak nye..haha (mengong jp..)

kpd GBS yg d'mlaka..

sakie,bb,zue,arifa n fara..
i miss u all..
kowg tetp kt ati ak..
bnyk bnda yg ak x ley lupe psal kowg smer..
sumer indah blaka.."kngn mngusik jiwa"..(gila jiwang)
sowi for u all guys..coz x msj n contct u all
ak bukn sngaja nk wt cm2 k..
n ak pn tau kowg phm n ak pn phm ngn kowg k..(ape ak ckp ni,,x phm ak..GILA!!)
mksd ak,,yela,,kte x msj2 n calling2 ag..
ak pn skung x b'ksmptn ag nk g umh kowg..
sowi k..
n sblm 2 ak nk mnx maaf kt kowg if ak ad bwt slah n slap kt kowg..
ak tau kowg ad smpn prasaan x puas ati kt ak an..
tp kowg tkot nk ckp ngn ak..
don worry ak ni open mnded..
ak ske org yg trus trang..
kalo kowg x suke,ckp je x suke..
ak x ske kalo ckp blakang..kang idup x aman lak..
plz k..ckp je ape yg kowg nk ckp psal ak..
ak sdar slame ni pn ak x pnh nk jd kwn yg t'baek tok kowg..

actually ak jeles ngn kowg b'5..
korg dr dlu smpi skung still together..
ak je yg x together..
mmg dr dlu ag ak x pnh nk together ngn sape2..
now ak dh x d kwn ag..i'm lonely k..
my mom la kwn ak dunia akhirat..
ble ak tgk pic2 kowg,,ak x tau nk ckp ape..
i'm speechless..
kowg hepi always..n always..
e2 la yg ak nmpk kt korg..but i'm hepi too ble kowg hepi..
ak doakn korg sntse yg t'baek k..
hopefully ur life is successful..
may ALLAH bless u all..

one more thng b'4 i'll fnished my word..
ak nk ckp yg ak skung dlm dlema antra idup dn mati ak..
sbb 2 ak nk cri sape dri ak sbnarnye..
n ak nk ubah ape yg ak dh mulekn wktu ak muda2 dlu..
i'ts time to i'll changed my life..
iera yg dlu dh bnyk bwt mslh yg ak o owg len x ley maafkn..
sowi kpd smua yg mngenali dri ini..
dr ati yg ikhlas dn rse rndah dri..
ak mnx maaf atas smua prkara yg ak dh bwt..
kowg sndri ley tau kn..
kpd yg sudi maafkn ak..ak b'trima ksih
smoga ALLAH blas jse kowg k..
n please,,i'm begging from u all..
kalo ak nk ubah idup ak ni,,
plz jgn la kowg ktuk o perli ak..
ak x ley trime e2 smer..i need my time 2 changed slowly k..
n tme ksih kpd yg sudi skong sy dgn s'ikhlas ati..
moga tuhan sajala yg dpt blas jsa kowg..

okla..dh pnjng lebar ak ckp..
skung ak ad keje nk wt..
next time,i'll text again k..
daa..i luv u all
one malaysia..